World War Me

In my brief 6 years in following my Rabbi Yahshua, an amazing phenomenon is happening. I’ve subscribed to a narrative of self-accountability. I’m accountable for all of my works. I have also become self-deprecating. Since Rabbi Yahshua leads me to honor Torah, Torah is making me cognizant of my weaknesses/shortcomings, and I’m not shy to use levity and point them out. I have to echo Shaul’s words to Believers in Rome, Italy:

“So the Torah is holy; that is, the commandment is holy, just and good. Romans 7:12.

Simultaneously, Shaul says something interesting while speaking to Believers in Rome, Italy:

“For we know that the Torah is of the Spirit, but as for me, I am bound to the old nature, sold to sin as a slave. I don’t understand my own behavior – I don’t do what I want to do; instead , I do the very thing I hate! Now if I am doing what I don’t want to do, I am agreeing that the Torah is good. But now it is no longer “the real me” doing it, but the sin housed inside me. For I know that there is nothing good housed inside me – that is, inside my old nature. I can want what is good, but I can’t do it! For I don’t do the good I want; instead, the evil that I don’t want is what I do! But if I am doing what “the real me” doesn’t want, it is no longer “the real me” doing it but the sin housed inside me. So I find it to be the rule, a kind of perverse “torah,” that although I want to do what is good, evil is right there with me! For in my inner self I completely agree with God’s Torah; but in my various parts, I see a different “torah,” one that battles with the Torah in my mind and makes me a prisoner of sin’s “torah,” which is operating in my various parts. What a miserable creature I am! Who will rescue me from this body bound for death? Thanks be to God through Yahshua the Messiah, our Lord! To sum up: with my mind, I am a slave to God’s Torah; but with my old nature, I am a slave of sin’s “torah.” Romans 7:14-25


Can anybody else identify with this? Rabbi Yahshua said to his talmidim, including Shimon ben Yonah: “Stay awake, and pray that you will not be put to the test — the spirit indeed is eager, but human nature is weak.” Mattityah 26:41. It’s fascinates me to hear Shaul say this. This is Shaul! Author of 13, potentially 14 letters in The New Testament. A Pharisee. Circumcised on the 8th day. Israelite from the tribe of Benyamin. Hebrew speaker with Hebrew speaking parents. Yah used Shaul’s zeal, having him repent from being a terrorist to the Body of Yahshua , to championing Yahshua. Shaul’s credentials are sublime! 

I used to think that Hebrew Israelite characters in the Hebrew Scriptures were superheroes. Yet , I believe Rabbi Yahshua is showing me that they were human, just like me. Hearing Shaul’s internal monologue, reading about the inner friction betwixt his Torah-loving mind and Torahbreaking flesh, is refreshing and revelatory. I don’t understand my own behavior either. At times I really fall short of loving my neighbor as myself. At times I can be conservative with the Good News. “They don’t want to hear it,” I’ll sometimes say. Yet, when I am given opportunities to share the Good News of Yahshua and Yah’s Kingdom, beautiful things happen. Even if they reject it, I did my part in co-laboring with Yah, because perfect love for Yah and love for my atheist neighbor, gay co-worker, Jewish acquaintance, should adrenalize me to share. Doesn’t everyone deserve to hear the Good News of Yah’s Kingdom? (Mattityah 24:14)

To the reader reading this, I want to close out with a word of encouragement. What’s the panacea for this internal war us Believers encounter? Yahshua The Messiah!

Do you remember what the crowds shouted in Matthew 21?


“As they were approaching Yerushalayim, they came to Beit-Pagei, on the Mount of Olives. Yahshua sent two talmidim with these instructions: “Go into the village ahead of you, and you will immediately find a donkey tethered there with its colt. Untie them and bring them to me. If anyone says anything to you, tell them; ‘The Lord needs them’; and he will let them go at once” This happened in order to fulfill what has been spoken through the prophet, “Say to the daughter of Tsiyyon, Look! Your King is coming to you, riding humbly on a donkey, and on a colt, the offspring of a beast of burden!” (Zekaryah 9:9). So the talmidim went and did as Yahshua directed them. They brought the donkey and the colt and put their robes on them, and Yahshua sat on them. Crowds of people carpeted the road with their clothing, while others cut branches from trees and spread them on the road. The crowds ahead of him and behind shouted,

“Hoshia Na! (Please, save us!)”

to the Son of David; 

Blessed is he who comes in the name of Yahweh! You highest in the heaven! Hoshia Na! When he entered Yerushalayim, the whole city was stirred. “Who is this?” they asked. And the crowds answered, “This is Yahshua, the prophet from Natzeret in the Galil.”

Mattityah 21:1-11

Did you know they were quoting a Psalm?

“Please, Yahweh! Save us! Please, Yahweh! Rescue us! Blessed is he who comes in the name of Yahweh. We bless you from the house of Yahweh.” Psalm 118:25,26


There is hope for you and I! Through Yahshua, the true heroic Savior of humanity, we are being delivered from a life of Torahlessness, being under the dominion of our old nature. Through Yahshua, we are becoming adroit in true repentance. Through Yahshua, we will win this war entitled: Insert Your Name _________ vs. Insert Your Name ___________. 


Take care to remember:


Yahshua answered them, “Yes, indeed! I tell you that everyone who practices sin (Yahchanan Aleph 3:4, Bamidbar 15:30,31, Daniyyel 9:11) is a slave of sin. Now a slave does not remain with a family forever, but a son does remain with it forever. So if the Son frees you, you will really be free!

Yahchanan 8:34-36




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